I Should be Sleeping but My Body is Confused
I started nightfloat on Monday, meaning I am on a month long rotation where I work nights instead of days (and night). For the first 2 weeks, I work 7pm-7am (in theory, reality is more like 7pm-8am, but this morning I got a late admission and was stuck there until almost 9), then I’ll switch to 4pm-4am (4pm-5 or 6am). It’s grueling but actually comes out to probably 15-20 fewer hours worked each week. I come home, try to nap 2-3 hours, then have lunch and play with the kids until their naptimes, when I lay down with them for another 1.5hrs. It’s REALLY hard on the body, but the bright side is I actually get to see my kids. By this morning, I was SO exhausted from being on my feet all night and sleeping ~4 hours a day between shifts. Nights at the hospital are CRAZY busy and I seriously don’t even sit down except in the ED when I’m admitting a new patient. But the beauty of nightfloat, and the reason I paid one of my co-interns to swap me a wards month for a nightfloat month this spring, is that you get 2 days off per week (we get “weekends”). Probably doesn’t sound too exciting to people with normal jobs, but it’s one of the only rotations we have during intern year where that happens.
So I got home ~9am today and don’t have to be back to the hospital until 7pm on Sunday. The hard part is that my body is so damn confused about what time of day it is, and I can’t quite convince it to sleep right now. Instead, I’ve decided to post pictures of the last 2 hikes we did – Burning Bear Creek Trail, which was AMAZING, and a little hike we’ve done before in Roxborough State Park, which I love. Both were incredible, but Burning Bear is my new favorite to do with kids, especially if it’s warm enough to “swim” in the beautiful mountain creek the trail follows.
These are from Burning Bear Creek hike:
And in case you’re not sick of pictures, here are a couple from Roxy State Park:
Jack starts school this week, which is huge. He’s VERY excited, but every time the topic comes up, Fin becomes hysterical. She doesn’t want him to go, and if he does, she wants to go with him. It’s kind of sad that their little pod of 3 is breaking up. Jack will only go to school a few hours a day (~3), but since it’s in the am, it’ll mean he doesn’t go on morning outtings with Fin and Shane. They’ll probably struggle without him for a bit, but I’m guessing Fin and Shane will become closer because of it (not that they aren’t close already, but you get the point). Sad.
Travis and I are back to daydreaming about getting to a point after I finish derm training (<4yrs) where we can pay off loans and just whisk our family overseas to travel for a few years while doing different types of international work. We’d homeschool and hire an international school teacher to join us and help teach the curriculum we design for our kids, with tons of hands-on learning Travis and I can provide along the way while we take our kids to see the world and do humanitarian work along the way. Then we’ll settle in London for 2 years, where I’ll do the Tropical Medicine fellowship before returning to the developing world to practice medicine / tropical derm / and teach at a med school. Travis is now doing health IT development work in Africa, but hopefully it’ll expand into Asia as well, so lots of possibilities for his non-clinical role overseas too. We just need his start-up company to do what people are projecting it will, and I just need to survive internship for now. In the meantime, it’s nice to dream, ya know?
Anyway, I think I might take a Tylenol PM and attempt sleep – I haven’t taken a single pill during pregnancy, and that’s a safe one anyway so don’t worry (Yiayia;). I think the baby would appreciate some rest. I can’t even imagine what kind of little monster is lurking within me, but if it’s anything like the last one, I should be resting every second I can! Speaking of, check out this tantrum, I call it a Fintrum:
Travis wasn’t in town when this happened and Fin gets very out of sorts without her daddy. It’s kind of an amusing video at first, and then it’s just sad when her little body just gives up and you realize the meltdown was a combo of exhaustion and missing her dad. I stopped filming and she just collapsed into my arms:( Poor little monster. But it does give you a glimpse into how her head can spin around!! I posted this so I can look back on this blog someday and see the good, the bad, and the ugly. And of course the beautiful, wonderful, fun, hilarious stuff that happens in our house everyday too.